I first heard about the Higher Intuitions Oracle via twitter thanks to one of my contacts, Johna Gibson Bowman, who happens to be the artist/creatrix of this oracle. As I soon as I checked it out, I knew I would love it. The artwork is just my cup of tea: bright colours, images suitable for a children’s story book It speaks to my inner child and the older I get, the more my inner child seems to want to come out to play.
The deck arrived a couple of days ago and today I finally decided to try one of the simple three card spreads included in the book. I didn’t actually do it so I would have something to blog about but because I genuinely felt I needed some guidance. It’s been an odd sort of day – gloomy and autumnal… in stark contrast to the summery weather of the past few days. I woke from a dream near-death experience where my heart had stopped and a couple of doctors had to resuscitate me. They brought me back to life but in the dream I remember not wanting them to… “If the one I love does not love me back, why should my heart keep beating?”
Reading it back, it seems such a melodramatic statement to make but I guess deep down, I do feel this way still and that is why I am choosing not to date at the moment. “How long do you wait for someone who is not available?” is not the question that will lead to healing. The question is, “How can I be OK with being in limbo, completely detached from the feeling space within me?” I do not wish to feel the pain of separation because it would be too debilitating, so I have flipped the switch to turn human emotions off. Fans of Vampire Diaries will get the reference. Yes, humans can flip the switch too!
Until very recently, I didn’t even know I had a switch. But when you meet ‘The One’ and remember shared past lives and he remembers nothing at all – what’s worse, he wants nothing to do with you… then you find the switch pretty darn quick.
Anyway, this was all on my mind when I laid the cards out because of my dream and I swear… even though my heart felt numb and heavy, these cards managed to lift me.
My life time totem is Unicorn, my current primary power animal is Cat (which is truer than true – I had a dream about cats night before last night!!) and my soul journey animal is Cardinal. I didn’t really need to look the meanings up in the companion booklet but I did it anyway and was pleased to see that some really lovely wisdom quotes had been included for each of the cards, as well as excellent explanations of the messages each animal brings.
To me, just looking at the cards and meditating briefly on the keywords gave me just what I needed to be OK with the limbo space I’m in right now. Everything really is just as it should and I’m not alone. For now, the switch remains flipped though.
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